I
grew up in rural Ohio among my 4 siblings, loving parents, a house
always filled with activity and privilege, summers spent by the pool, winters
skating on the pond, relatives coming and going, and surrounded by
the best circle of friends I could ever hope to have. Dad, my greatest role model, although I didn't get a chance to realize it, died when I was 15. Athletics has
and always will be my lifestyle - cheerleading, gymnastics,
running, yoga. I've carried my athletics with me through youth into my 20s and 30s.
I've been given the gift of enjoying my workouts, turning physical exercise into a meditative practice, escaping the world around me. I've had a diverse and challenging career, all
involving marketing and event planning, which I'd like to integrate
back into my life at some point. I'm not done yet. Fortunately, in my youth, I've had the privilege to semi-retire twice to untie the
docklines and visit new places. Spring 2007 for a 3-month sail in the Caribbean
and most recently Summer 2014 to cruise our 36' home with my husband. Both journeys he has had to pry my butt from the office chair, but I'm always willing to give something new a try in order to grow from the experience even with hestitation (see Mark Twain quote). The over-arching story of my life has been this recent journey. Here, today, is where I've learned the most about myself, where
the story of my life has collided with my past, present and future. I've learned I'm not as brave as I'd like. I thought I knew myself better, even at 34. Black water frightens me. Reading books has become a new hobby. I love to cook in a small space. I'm still in love with yoga. I've had lots of time to mediate on my past and how to shape my future. I need to love more. Encourage more. I pause to honor sunsets. Running is what I do. I've run over 60 races in my life. I get compliments on my white teeth. I love to make others laugh. I'd like to get a sunflower tattoo. I want to be my husband's #1 cheerleader. I'm afraid of change. I love visiting VT. I never pass up a beer. I'm a social butterfly in the sailing community. I know more about sailing then I realize. I like sailing. I can't wait to become a mother. I get homesick. I prefer land. I love shoes. Maintaining relationships is crucial. I want a veggie garden. I love to floss. I have a lot to learn.
As I write, I realize the story of my life is ever-blossoming, evolving through blank pages. My story isn't a chronology of events. It's a story of expression, emotions and realizations. A story of how to love myself better so I can love others. Call it rambling. Call it incoherent. Call it incoherent rambling! My needs and wants, positive and negative traits are all part of my character. This is my life story...for today.
Blogging every day in May - very impressive! I just finished up the A to Z Challenge last month - 26 posts was a real stretch. I can't imagine doing 31 :-) Looking forward to reading what you come up with. Have fun with it!
ReplyDelete"Write for the sheer joy of expressing..." Love it!
ReplyDeleteBeautifully written & shared my friend... :)
ReplyDeleteBeautifully written - I read this with a tissue and tears running down my face with my heart fluttering and loving every word you wrote. I love you for the beautiful, loving person you are, whom I am deeply attached to and you have wonderful words to share with those who know you and even those who do not, but can tell what a wonderful person you are. I love you with all my heart, keep on writing and inspiring those who read this....xoxox mama
ReplyDeleteBeautifully written - I read this with a tissue and tears running down my face with my heart fluttering and loving every word you wrote. I love you for the beautiful, loving person you are, whom I am deeply attached to and you have wonderful words to share with those who know you and even those who do not, but can tell what a wonderful person you are. I love you with all my heart, keep on writing and inspiring those who read this....xoxox mama
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